from the pages of Patrick's
Personal Spiritual Journal
To be in need is to love grace
To be filled is to despise it
Reality is that I need, and I should love, grace
The unreality I create bills me as filled
And hardens my heart
So that I cannot need
Dear Christ, I am in deep need
Please be gracious to me.
Otherwise, I’ll never make it.
It’s just so critical
Received a professor’s criticism of my thesis and it produced
anxiety for me. What if he doesn’t approve of me?
Halfway through I acknowledged the anxiety and embraced it as constructive
Criticism can be constructive or flatly rejected
What is in me that prefers to flatly reject it?
When I should prefer self analysis
Upon analyzing my self recently, I’ve found:
Strong and arbitrary judgment of strangers
A fear of appearing to be a failure
I’ve made progress on the second, but the first is very innate.
The logarithm for temptation
Some have claimed to have cracked
Avoid certain behaviors
Invest in others
And sin will never be appealing
But the math doesn’t add up
You may increase your odds
But in the end, it’s always a matter of the heart
If my heart is right
If it is purely Christ’s
Then good fruit will be unavoidable
I find that being aware of Christ is not natural for me
I must bring about this awareness purposefully
And when I allow the crush of the day to dominate, I am never
aware of him
Patrick is Routine Revelation. These are entries from his personal spiritual journal. Most entries were written several years before they were published. For more on Rev. Riecke, click here.