from the pages of Patrick's
Personal Spiritual Journal
If He is good
He’s the only one
So there’s no wonder why it’s hard to believe
Our only experience is with others who are not good—at least only good
And even those who are good in part had to fight to be that way and
battle still to stay that way.
And we are to trust God when all of life has taught us not to trust
Even if we can generally trust a person we are aware that we cannot
completely trust them.
There are always areas where people cannot be trusted—even it it’s not
because of a bad heart-maybe just a lack of ability or a benign personality
The most reliable individual perhaps cannot be trusted to make dinner
or balance the checkbook or take out the trash.
In this context of not only learning that others cannot be trusted, but
that I cannot be trusted, I am supposed to somehow accept that there is a higher
power who is “Good”; meaning he can be trusted completely.
But even if this tale is true, what if I don’t care for his goodness?
And so his goodness cannot be trusted to act in ways I find agreeable? It may
sound glib and glowing to say God is good, but it betrays my every experience
and questions my with regard to my desire for true goodness.
Satan is so subtle
Never fully showing his hand
He never wishes me to simply renounce Christ
He’d prefer I ignore him
His voice constantly calls to me
Not for an evil that is detestable
But for one that may look
Very much like the good deed
The enemy of God is not evil
It is the good that is not God
And by the good that is not God
All society is led away
These lesser goods, if enjoyed in
The proper place, may be reflections of God
But alas, they cry, not like sirens,
But as great marketing
Planting the seed of something else
That leads me away from my king
And the lie I believe is that
I will gain freedom
But alas there is only one freedom
And it is found in God
I fail to be fully human
And am something alien
Only in God am I free
Free from the bondage of the soul
Indicates a lack of love. I talk with those I love. If I cannot talk
with them it creates an ache in my heart. And yet I can go hours without
speaking to my Lord. And days without true heart-to-heart communication.
Prayerlessness also indicates a lack of faith. Even if love will not motivate
one to prayer, a desire for supernatural providence may provide ample
motivation, unless we do not, in our real thinking, not our theology, believe
that God is powerful and active. Again, if we do not truly desire what He
desires, then we will not pray. If I do not trust his desires, I will not ask
for them. I will pray if I love him, believe in him and trust him, wanting what
he wants. Open our hearts to be changed by your Holy Spirit into believers who
love and trust.
Patrick is Routine Revelation. These are entries from his personal spiritual journal. Most entries were written several years before they were published. For more on Rev. Riecke, click here.